You know how certain situations can spiral out of control, and yet you can look at it and see a calm and soothing lake that projects nothing but serenity. DENIAL, man! As much as I'd hate to admit it, I have a tendency of psycho-ing myself to think things in manners I desire. Metaphorically, this is what happened.
I've been sitting in the same station wagon for almost 3 years. It's not an outstanding automobile, but it fulfills its purpose (getting me from point A to point B). It requires the every-now-and-then servicing/up-keeping/maintaining which would amount to a slightly more than preferred sum. It's been good to me and it's been bad to me. However, the bad times were always sugarcoated as it was always tunneled through with just 'one eye' as I chose to keep the other shut. I shook off plenty of the crap it brought me, almost too often... Till now.
Now, don't get me wrong I'm aware that everything has its pros and cons. So, why would I let the station wagon go if it just slightly fell short from the title of mint condition. Well, I slowly came to realize that I had more 'cash' than I knew. With more greens, an upgrade would be a cinch. But do I really want a new one? That being said, I've always been a sentimental person. I'd probably wrestle with myself, poke an eye out perhaps before ever coming to a conclusion.
Hence, now... With a heavy heart, I've decided to release the wagon and make room for better cars. It's not that it wasn't a faithful companion through the moutainous roads and thunderous downpours. It was, in fact. But sometimes, if a certain thing, especially a car is 'destined' for you... You'll know it, for sure. You need not second guess yourself. At least that's what I was told. So, I hit the road, not to hunt for another car or at least not yet. But I know by His grace, the right one will come my way. As for now, I'll be hoping for better cars to come along, not for possession but for knowledge and experience in pursuit of one that will eventually be mine. While time and space is at work in making that happen, that designated spot remains empty, reserved for The Car.
- c h e r
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