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"You see that girl over there, she's my best friend."

That's what he told a little boy at an orphanage we visited for our moral project. I remember him being in formal attire, that chilli red tie coupled with a 100 watt smile. So, what was my response? "Nahh, he's lying. I'm not... He's a rockstar now" was what I said. I do remember flashing a smile back at him though. Come to think of it, I wonder whether he even meant what he said that night. 

I'd take it back, I'd take it back in a heartbeat. My response toward what he told that little boy, did I say it to make the boy giggle? To have people think it was a love-hate thing going on? It's a little fuzzy, I'll admit, it's been more than a year why wouldn't it be fuzzy? I'm not living in the past... Not entirely, at least. 

So, I guess what I mean is... I should've said that he was my best friend too. There was no denying it, at least in my heart there was no doubt. People knew we were buddies, but I've never had a friend like him. I miss how similar we were, I miss how loyal you always were, I miss our hangout sessions dearly.

Yes, like time, life goes on. Things got bitter and we said stupid things, I regret not being quick to apologize though, ever so much. I remember the first big conflict we had, our apology was anything but an apology, we had no verbal communication. You looked at me, I looked at you and we burst out in laughter and all was forgiven <3.  I regret the apology for the final straw didn't end that way, I regret that the apology for our WW3 never came.

So if only I could turn back time, like Aqua says I would've stayed and wished you did the same. Well,  things are the way they are now, no turning back and no second chances. Here's to success upon success in all you do and all the best that life can possibly bring *clinking of glasses*

"You see that girl over there, she's was my best friend."

- c h e r