the desire to always know

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You could call me a liar if I said wasn’t feeling any kind of pressure ever since the semester began, week two is barely in and already I am feeling it; the pressure that is. Three different assignments are already up on bb7! Of which I’ve yet to really get cracking on some more. I feel as if the water level is rising above me so quickly that I can barely catch a breath [funny coming from someone who can't swim, lol] Oh God, take me now! Sorry for the drama queen outburst but it is a little intimidating, I must say. I’m the kind of person who fears the unknown, A LOT. The fear of not knowing is almost as serious as my phobia of frogs, I can’t help but w.a.n.t to know what comes subsequently, just so I can prepare for it or be aware of God knows what if it comes flying toward me and because of that undying desire to know, would probably lose countless hours of preciously sleep just second guessing the various outcomes of the upcoming events or just the upcoming events itself. *Sigh*, I always want to know.

I kind of wished that things of the future would come by mail sometimes, indicating the fortune or misfortune that is about to befall upon one’s life. “Hey, you’ll get dumped in 3 days at 2.43 in the afternoon. Do watch out!” How cool would that be? Or or, if the universe had a life of its own and passed messages around the globe via a jiggy? One shake for good things that are about to happen, and two for bad. Haha! Something like that la, the ability to not be restricted by time and space basically. Think about it, if there were such a thing at least we would be able to avoid that of which is avoidable, right? Plenty of good points in fact if we were to make a list of the pros of pre-warnings, it’ll help with huge problems such as recession, economic booms or H1N1 and what not. As helpful and logical as that may seem, the world doesn’t work that way. Things just come in any way they will and at any time they will, nothing changes that therefore we shut up and deal with it every day :)

So, come what may..

So be it; let it be.

- c h e r